Survived, just enough.

First day back on the mat after a 6month lay off. Warm ups darn near killed me! Bear crawls, front rolls, crab walks, breakfalls, burpies, boot straps, etc. I honestly couldnt breathe a few times. It really sucks being this far out of shape. I'm upset with myself but I know I can put in the work. Its all right there for me to use. Tomorrow is Crossfit. At 6am my alarm will ring. I have 45mins to wake up and make it over to the Crossfit facility ready for an hour of physical torture.

Well, todays the big day. In a matter of an hour I will step back on the mats for the first time in 6months. I'm scared, nervous, ashamed, anxious etc. I feel like puking and i havent done one bear crawl or burpee. BUT, I'm going to do it anyway. Hate to sound cliche but the MJ death kind of rocked my boat about life. He was the icon for my generation. When your icons start to die the reality of little trivial things become just that, trivial. All the feelings I'm having right now about getting my butt back in shape will be there. I accept them. I welcome them. BUT, I'm still going. As a matter of fact, I'm gone. After class report coming soon.

Back, well sort of

So, I know I've only posted like what 3 times since creating this blog and I apologize. It was a rough school year and rough year for me at home. Won't get into that right now. What I'm stoked about is I've been cleared by my doctor to return to physical activity. See, I herniated a disc in the L3 region of my back during the school year. Rather than get a needle stuck in my back I opted to just suck it up and let my body heal on its on. Took alot longer than I thought but the needle isnt coming near me. I just signed up for a 2 week 6 class Crossfit Elements Class here in St.Louis. I did Crossfit back in 2005 at the old HQ in Santa Cruz, CA. I met Coach, Jason, and Brendan. I loved the feeling of being pushed to my limit. Luckily we have a certified Crossfit gym here now. I will blog about my experiences with the 2 week class. What doesnt kill me will make me stronger right? I'm also totally committed to BJJ now! More committed than when I first started in 03. I'm more mature now and understand my physical limits. No more trying to beat the younger crowd. Its not about EGO anymore. I tap, I tap move on. Slap hands and lets go again.